Feelings!

Feelings! Sometimes I wish I didn't have them because my back hurts so bad. The pain never stops. I have had so many epidoral steriod shots for pain and they don't work. I really don't understand why! I have had all the test and surgery twice last year. I go back to the doctor a week from Monday. I still have hope that he will find out why I'm in so much pain and stop it. I'm learning to live with the pain but really don't want to just live with it, I want it to stop. I'm glad I can still feel! Because if I stop feeling the pain what then?